How Much Do I Concern?

Assalamualaikum.. hey guys.. so today i wanna talk about something that umm.. practically, it's pretty difficult than saying it or talking about it. it's due to my own shortcomings and weakness. you know that iman is something that is not static. one time it increases and other times it decreases. sometimes, you would feel like "what i,ve been doing? what should've I been doing? and you would start to think back.. that you should turn back to the right path.. turn back to Allah S.W.T., The Creator of The Heavens and The Earths..  subhanAllah.. that is indeed a good sign and actually that Allah S.W.T is showing His mercy and bountny so that his slaves can turn back in repentance. may Allah keep his Guidance on us.. say Ameen! and sometimes you would do something that you should haven't been doing.. means like something that when you are doing it, you don't remember Allah even a little.. we can say that we are actually in the state of gaflah .. astaghfirullah.. may Allah forgive us.. say Ameen!

so, get back to the main topic, the thing that I want to talk here is how much do i concern about the Life of Hereafter.. honestly speaking, probably i don't have that much of concern as other brothers and sisters do.. astaghfirullah.. probably it is because of the surroundings.. those temptations around me has indeed blocked and slowed me down..

it is not something that we can recharge easily like our hand phone, cellphone, smartphone, or iphone ( they are all same.. LOL, my iPhone 3G has has a drainy battery anywy.. it needs to be charged every 24 hours..what an annoying stuff, right? ).. so basically, it goes to our iman (faith). in my opinion, how much our iman goes up, that much we will have the concern of akhirat. But the thing is, iman is yazid ( increasing ) and yanqus (decreasing) all the times. sometimes,  when we are being reminded by friends or roommates about the mistakes that we have done and what we should have done, we will turn back again to the right track, alhamdulillah..sometimes.. it could make you cry and deep in our heart, we will feel like " i have gone too far.. i did so many mistakes.. i totally have forgotten the purpose of my life.. even worst, i forgot what i have forgotten all this time..".. and after a while, we lose again.. lose the track.. turn to the other side.. especially.. when you r alone.. there is no one around..it is just too easy for Syaitan (devil) to destroy our imaan and lead us toward sins. (may Allah protect us.ameen)..

assalamualaikum..

Assalamualaikum...kaifa halukum? jayyid? whoaa.. how's my arabic? huhu.. well.. i,m not an arab..i,m an ajam (non arab) but honestly i love arabic language. i wish i could speak like those arab brothers in my university speak their native language.. brother ahmad, hassan, umar, abdul majid ( from Sauudi, such beautiful names they have ). to tell the truth, they are the most nice and kind arab brothers that i,ve ever known. So those who are looking for a good husband.. two of these are still available (umar and hassan).. :).. anyway, why i love arabic language?. it's simply because i'm a Muslim and arabic is The Holy Qur'an's language. furhtermore, i was told that arabic language is the language of Jannah (paradise). isn't beautiful that you speak with those beautiful حور العين ( angles of paradise ) in Jannah using Arabic language? say Ameen! itd awkward I guess if we talk in English with them.. would they understand if we say "you'r beautiful"? huhu..i do not know,, they probably would understand it but um.. if we can speak arabic.. would it become easier for us to "communicate" with them?